Loss After Loss: Infertility and Miscarriage

Before my daughter, I went through a series of devastating losses:

• A pregnancy with complications I couldn’t continue.
• A miscarriage that left me numb.
• Multiple ectopic pregnancies, including one that almost took my life.

Infertility isn’t just a medical condition. It’s an emotional war. I remember sitting in fertility specialists’ offices, hearing words like “risk,” “loss,” and “unlikely.” I felt betrayed by my own body.

What most people never saw:

• Crying alone in the bathroom at work, splashing water on my face so I could go back out with a fake smile.
• Laughing at dinners while my family celebrated new babies, while inside I felt shattered.
• Pretending to be “fine” because no one around me knew the pain I carried daily.

This is hidden grief — the silent heartbreak of infertility and pregnancy loss.